hey guys.... wassup... srry man.. have nt been updatin much recently been kinda pissed off and really in a mind irritatin situation.... dunno hw long can i tahan sia... betul..... honestly i feel like shoutin out and stuff but just holdin back.....

k here goes..... the thing tt is buggin me...... :

For 20 yrs i have nt met or heard any movement or seen any1 from my mum's side cause of smth tt happeend 21 yrs ago... which was really bo liao to the core..... tt seperated my parents and me from my mum's side folks... den one wednesday i did nt go out tt day... suddenly at arnd 9 pm.. i hear the door bell ringin and door knockin... i was thinkin... " hu the bloody fk is this bangin the door and gettin the attention of the ppl inside... nth better to do ar" open the door and see 1 man and 1 woman there... i tot some salesperson or smth..... Wat shocked me was they asked me if my mum's name is this and my dad's name is this... I was like.......... hu are u guys... den tt woman said I am ur mum's 4th sister... CAN U FREAKIN THINK OF THE SHOCK TT I HAD.... I mean i noe and i have heard all abt my mum's family hw many sisters and all frm my mum but havin to meet all of a suddenly out of the blue... I was seriously like.... WAT THE HOLY MOTHER FK...... I seriously stood there like a statue for like a few secs dunno wat to say and all.... den my mum came out and saw..... But..... the reunion of my mum's 4th sis and her is nt say the mind drainin situation honestly... tt was just alrite i mean i am shaken and in shock but wat i heard aft tt was really......... I really dunno hw to explain tt feeling.... My grandma... aka my mum's mum is lyin in hospital wif stroke and bleedin in the brain.... and she may die anytime....

When i heard it..... even i was in total shock...... for 20 yrs.... i have nt met any of u and i noe none of u... and all of a sudden u tell me tt my grandma was in hospital wif haemorrage in the brain.... my 1st tot was is this another " crime-watch" connin shyt or was this for real... i dunno... but aft the nxt day.... i knew it was for real..... I am like totally lost for words and all... well i did nt even think tt a family reuinion would happen while a family member is on the death bed... ( honestly there is nt much chance but the situation can be overturned dependin on individual cause bleedin the the brain is no joke.... we have to look at the age and the other things tt the patient maybe sufferin b4 we can conclude tt the patient maybe able to survive....) but thank god she has nw gained her consiciousness but still in a critical condition... i mean anythin can happen nt even I can play god... in my opinion.. my grandma will most likely go... its onli a matter of time.... i am nt cursin her.. its facts.... but it can be a miracle... if she can survive until many more years...

Well I just pray tt the whole family is being united because of this matter.... I am still in shock and fear.... well cause of some issues which I would nt wan to discuss....... hiaz...............

TROUBLED UNCLE STEVEN SIGNIN OFF..............................................

Wassup guys... Hiaz see bei sians... i am like dyin liao.... not been workin for the past few days and have been clearin some stuff recently... den i chanced upon smth interestin.... a photo of me and my best pal frm sec sch.... OMG hw long has it been since I contacted much of the ppl in my sec sch... haha... honestly when i see my sec sch photos I look like a freakin idiotic S.O.B. lol... I am nt jkin.... look normal but a devil inside always playin prank and all in sec sch... always gettin into fights in the canteen and all... HIAZ ALL THE GD OLD DAYS OF FUN... and tt was when i really was wif andrew... I'll nvr forget tt even though u have gone... u will always be the best pal I'll ever have...



Even though its been 2 yrs since u have left us..... we (esp me) have nt been able to forget abt u my fren u were the best pal any1 could ever ask for helpin out no matter wat through thick and thin.... when i was down u always cheered me up... when i gt into trouble u would help me and try and take the blame always shielding me from harm like as if I was a younger bro to u.... YET... on tt fateful day.... I was nt able to save u nt even once.... I will nvr be able to forgive myself for tt.... Have been really beatin myself up for wat happeend to u... The person hu shld have been dead was me.... Y did u shield me andrew...y !!!!!! Y didn't those mother fkers just kill me on tt day too so tt i can aso join u in heaven.... Y did our frens come so fast and chase those fkin robbers away even b4 I could avenge u or die tryin.... Y am I so fkin useless and nt able to help u in gettin those fkin assholes hu killed u and let them escape and up to today nt be able to catch them properly or assist the police in their capture.......

I have failed u andrew I am ashamed to even see u in april... I dun deserve to be even called ur bro.... ANDREW... I can promise u this... I will definitely get those mother fkers or die tryin.... I wont let u die in vain..... I swear to god.... Hope tt u would protect me when I do tt....

Rest in peace my fren... we miss u loads andrew..... tc

UNCLE STEVEN SIGNIN OFF....................

( p.s. editor's note : I am srry for rantin so much abt this I just need to get it off my chest if nt i feel dead miserable I AM SRRY FOLKS FOR UPSETTIN ANY OF U....)