Woke up like arnd 6 am in the mornin aft slpin for like just a couple of hrs I guess more like just 3 hrs... dunno y I just couldnt slp... switched on my com and just started playin some cabal to relieve some stress.... (editor's note : hey I have nt been playin it for a damn long time le hor.. everyday FYP until i aso no time to play ma...) haha... Downloaded a song called Good Girls Gone Bad by Cobra Starship... hmmm this song title seems kinda familiar dun u think so lynn... keke... lolz be a gd gal la I still prefer u tt way... dun be a BIATCH... k ma lynn???

Somehw I dunno y... smth in my mind triggered me to go open up my folder and search for the piano version of the song Somewhere which is sung by Within Temptation... but in this case its just the piano cover... listenin to it over and over again.... sittin there and listenin to it like an emo freak... thinkin abt the past.. abt Andrew and abt my cousin... all the fun times we had tgt... tears just started rollin down my cheeks.... I noe the sayin goes "nan ren liu xue bu liu lei" but honestly even the strongest man on earth will cry when he loses his loved one(s)... unless ur just a cold blooded mother fkin son of a bitch den tt one dun say la... Tts a side of me very few people have seen... I guess at times its a cover I shw tt I am strong... but for a fact I am... just tt I too have my weak moments and this is a side I try my best nvr to shw to any1 this is a side I think onli my family has seen this side of me and probably my 1st gf has ever seen... cause I practically broke down while I was wif her when I went back to the place where it happened to andrew... which I still blame myself even though it has been 2 yrs. Well I guess so far onli 3 grps of people have ever seen namely my family, my 1st gf and lastly andrew's parents and fiance.

To my dearly beloved da sao... I am srry tt I allowed it to happen to ah kor... and I still cant stop thinkin abt wat happened tt day I am really srry I hope ur still doin fine?? Pls contact me okie da sao?

I guess I am srry guys.. I guess its just one of the days where I am damn emotional and just felt like typin out my tots.. well tts wat a blog is for rite... I need time to heal my wounds still and I really dunno hw long will I take to completely come out of this black hole of mine... Will u be able to help me ma dear??? Will u hold my hand and walk wif me on this lonely, cold dark and long path??? I hope I can slowly come out of this with our unity of strength.......

I guess I gotta go.. tc all... anythin sms or call me k guys??? OI GREENIE SMS ME LEI... WAITIN FOR UR SMS LEI NEED TO TALK TO U ABT SMTH LOR....

UNCLE STEVEN SIGNIN OFF......................................