Hi all singaporeans... happy national day to all... incidentally.. it seems to be the bdae of a few ppl tt I noe too.. haha... wah liew damn envious of u all lor... gt the whole nation to celebrate wif u all de.. 21 gun (cannon) salute.. followed by 3 rounds of SAR21 salute.. and loads of fireworks... so lucky lor... hahahahahah.... k I am jealous okie.. haha... well happy bdae to u Hui Si, En-hui, and Alicia mei.. hmm am I missin any1 out tt i noe out ma... haha PS PS if I missed u out... sumimasen...

Well... honestly this national day.. is really nt happiness for me... nt like last time.. where I really enjoyed it with 2 ppl tt I cared and loved the most and celebrate the nation's bdae... sad to say both of them are nw gone.... One died when I started poly yr 1... which is 2 yrs ago.. and another... just a few wks ago or shld I say 1 mth ago... its just hard.. and I guess... it will take alot of time for me to recover again...

I just hope I will have the strength to continue livin this miserable life of mine... but I guess.. like wat En-hui mentioned I have to concentrate on other things too... other then the mournin... Well for one is my exams that are comin up soon in like 1 wk's time and the most screwed up part is my laptop is at acer service centre gettin my graphics card changed... yea so for nw i am usin my sch's loaned laptop.. hiaz... sians...

Despite the fall that I have had the lost of 2 of my most precious ppl.. I still wan to stand up and I am really nt sure hw long will I take this time.... but I hope tt the some1 special to me will be able to stand by me... although I cant promise u tt I will be the best bf... I noe tt at least I will try and be one to u... Although I did break ur heart once b4..... I noe that I ill try my best to ammend that.. cause I have lost u once and the pain of losin u tt once was really painful and I would nt wan to lose u again... will u give me chance to be wif u again??? I noe u need time to think abt our relationship and being tgt... and I will give u the space and time to think abt it... but no matter wat happens, I will still love u wif all my heart and wif all my soul... I swear and I promise u on the souls of the 2 ppl tt I loved dearly and have lost...

Well I guess I go and relax and enjoy my national day holiday ba... okie maybe nt really enjoy cause I will be in agony due to the lost... but yea.. tc folks..

TROUBLED AND SADDENED UNCLE STEVEN SIGNIN OFF.....