Public Holidays!!!! xD

Well to all muslim frens out there.. Selamat Hari Raya Haji to u... Its been a darn while since I blog again.. guess time is nt really smth I really have... Playin on9 games --> greatly reduced... listenin to music and doin work --> greatly increased.... haha... yeaps.. been really busy wif my FYP and stuff.. esp doin of report... formerly I was doin on Cloning and Purification and Expression of Mouse AIF protein... (kk I noe u guys must be wonderin WTF is this guy talkin abt rite... relax will explain alittle later la) and nw I am doin on dental plague.... hahaha..... both abt culturin of bacteria... woots... I LOVE BIOLOGY....

Kk nw time or explaination... My 1st proj is all abt cancer cells... well in a normal cell it would undergo apoptosis (which means cell death) if the cell is too badly damage... But when the particular person has cancer... his genes are altered in such a way that it makes ur cells and body mechanism think that its alrite and that everythin is fine and thus not intiatin the program that is inputted into the cell, which is called " operation kill myself u S.O.B.) so in order to induce the cell to die... we have to "restructure" the different gene codings so that we would be able to induce cell death... Interestin eh... hahah well to me the proj nt so interestin la.. my PI more interestin haha.. macham joker... haha.... Dr. Francis Lim... haha... dun pray pray k... he gt PHD hor... but well those days were the fun times... doin proj he see us stress he will crack jokes to lighten us up.....

Once I rmb we all seriously listenin to him... he drew a plasmid on the white board... and all of us knew it was a plasmid.... we all thinkin abt work suddenly he decide to play a joke on us... Francis : eh u mother fkers... this is a plasmid k... this nt asshole....
Rest of us: ROFLMAO.... WTHMF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aiyo... I think abt this ar I aso peng... wah lao eh.. buay tahan ar... but well he is understandin... Cheers my "smokin buddy" lecturer.... haha dun worry when I pass out I sure take pic wif u hope u will quit being a lecturer in RP la... den we 2 pose rite infront of the campus and pose like wat u said... steady er nt... HAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!

Nw doin a proj on dental plague just hw to reduce the amount of bacteria growth in our mouth... like creatin a new toothpaste wif HERBAL EXTRACT.... dun pray pray k... HERBAL EXTRACT HOR.. nt some stupid fkin chemicalized drug k... haha xD

Well nw report is all over left presentation.... den its all over... woohoo.... I gtg guys gonna meet my fren haha.... Well if u guys are lookin for me u noe hw to find me.. sms me alrite

UNCLE STEVEN SIGNIN OFF..........................................................

(On a side note.. OI GREENIE.. SMS ME LEI.. WANNA TALK TO U WOR... WHEN U SMSIN ME????)

Feelin Helpless...........

Woke up like arnd 6 am in the mornin aft slpin for like just a couple of hrs I guess more like just 3 hrs... dunno y I just couldnt slp... switched on my com and just started playin some cabal to relieve some stress.... (editor's note : hey I have nt been playin it for a damn long time le hor.. everyday FYP until i aso no time to play ma...) haha... Downloaded a song called Good Girls Gone Bad by Cobra Starship... hmmm this song title seems kinda familiar dun u think so lynn... keke... lolz be a gd gal la I still prefer u tt way... dun be a BIATCH... k ma lynn???

Somehw I dunno y... smth in my mind triggered me to go open up my folder and search for the piano version of the song Somewhere which is sung by Within Temptation... but in this case its just the piano cover... listenin to it over and over again.... sittin there and listenin to it like an emo freak... thinkin abt the past.. abt Andrew and abt my cousin... all the fun times we had tgt... tears just started rollin down my cheeks.... I noe the sayin goes "nan ren liu xue bu liu lei" but honestly even the strongest man on earth will cry when he loses his loved one(s)... unless ur just a cold blooded mother fkin son of a bitch den tt one dun say la... Tts a side of me very few people have seen... I guess at times its a cover I shw tt I am strong... but for a fact I am... just tt I too have my weak moments and this is a side I try my best nvr to shw to any1 this is a side I think onli my family has seen this side of me and probably my 1st gf has ever seen... cause I practically broke down while I was wif her when I went back to the place where it happened to andrew... which I still blame myself even though it has been 2 yrs. Well I guess so far onli 3 grps of people have ever seen namely my family, my 1st gf and lastly andrew's parents and fiance.

To my dearly beloved da sao... I am srry tt I allowed it to happen to ah kor... and I still cant stop thinkin abt wat happened tt day I am really srry I hope ur still doin fine?? Pls contact me okie da sao?

I guess I am srry guys.. I guess its just one of the days where I am damn emotional and just felt like typin out my tots.. well tts wat a blog is for rite... I need time to heal my wounds still and I really dunno hw long will I take to completely come out of this black hole of mine... Will u be able to help me ma dear??? Will u hold my hand and walk wif me on this lonely, cold dark and long path??? I hope I can slowly come out of this with our unity of strength.......

I guess I gotta go.. tc all... anythin sms or call me k guys??? OI GREENIE SMS ME LEI... WAITIN FOR UR SMS LEI NEED TO TALK TO U ABT SMTH LOR....

UNCLE STEVEN SIGNIN OFF......................................

Trouble and more troubles

I have been feeling stressed out recently and I am like WTF more do u fkin wan from me.... Hiaz.... Sian diao by more den 95% liao la...

Everyday for the past whole week I have been stayin back in sch for my FYP ( aka Final Yr Project) and yes I am nt gg to complain cause its impt cause it is my education and well it is a gd way of exposure for me so that I will be able to at least be able to get employed due to certain experiences which is greatly REDUCED due to fact tt I am from Republic Poly. Compared to a guy from another poly such as Singapore Poly or for the matter any other poly... they definitely have more experience than us cause of attachment... but when it comes to Technological side WE OWN UR ASS BIG TIME ASSHOLE FACE MAN... lolz... hahaha ( ps.. taken from from the love guru and nt meant to insult any1) ^^ haha. Well the cruel fact abt the workin life is its either u perform smartly and get ur pay or work like a dumb Mother Fker and still get laid off... Its abt being street smart and book smart the same time...

Singapore... its either u get a freakin PHD ( aka Permanant Head Damage) so that u are able to have a SLIGHTLY higher chance of gettin a job or u can start typin this followin link that I have just invented and started :
http://www.gg.com.sg/iamsoscrewedwifoutadecentcertificate.html

Well I guess I am gonna enjoy my Sunday so that I will be able to have a gd wk ahead wif lesser stress... And to all O lvl takers GD LUCK FOR UR PAPERS!!!!!

Uncle steven signin off...............................

hiaz.....

Been a really long time since i last updated my blog.. been bz wif FYP presenting and all to think abt much stuff... btw srry greenie gomenesai.... haha btw greenie can send me a msg to me ma... I sent the phone to repair den lost all the phone contacts haha... send me a msg ba I keep in contact wif u through phone aso ba...

Although tml is deepavali.... I am nt celebratin for 1 yr I cant celebrate anythin well cause of my cousin's death... its a custom I guess... lolz but to be honest... I gt no mood to celebrate aso... busy wif FYP tryin to rush it out in like a mth's time... as well as many other stuff too.... kinda stressed up... hiaz....

Sch just reopned again for the last semester of the third year for me haha.... weee finally gg to leave my stupid poly lolz and go into NS.... booked my medical in jan aft sch close.... haha.... i guess i cant wait to just get it over and done wif..... just wan to end all of these fast.... and get into workin life again.... BUT the most funniest part is... when u alrdy worked u find studies more enjoyable... which is kinda true cause its so much lesser stress den workin... u can ask any1 abt tt... rite GREENIE.... hehe....

Btw guys srry for being MIA for so long haha... tc guys btw anythin u can msn or sms or call me k.. and greenie sms me okie... i need to talk to u.....

Tc folks.. UNCLE STEVEN SIGNIN OFF.....

Happy National Day!!!!

Hi all singaporeans... happy national day to all... incidentally.. it seems to be the bdae of a few ppl tt I noe too.. haha... wah liew damn envious of u all lor... gt the whole nation to celebrate wif u all de.. 21 gun (cannon) salute.. followed by 3 rounds of SAR21 salute.. and loads of fireworks... so lucky lor... hahahahahah.... k I am jealous okie.. haha... well happy bdae to u Hui Si, En-hui, and Alicia mei.. hmm am I missin any1 out tt i noe out ma... haha PS PS if I missed u out... sumimasen...

Well... honestly this national day.. is really nt happiness for me... nt like last time.. where I really enjoyed it with 2 ppl tt I cared and loved the most and celebrate the nation's bdae... sad to say both of them are nw gone.... One died when I started poly yr 1... which is 2 yrs ago.. and another... just a few wks ago or shld I say 1 mth ago... its just hard.. and I guess... it will take alot of time for me to recover again...

I just hope I will have the strength to continue livin this miserable life of mine... but I guess.. like wat En-hui mentioned I have to concentrate on other things too... other then the mournin... Well for one is my exams that are comin up soon in like 1 wk's time and the most screwed up part is my laptop is at acer service centre gettin my graphics card changed... yea so for nw i am usin my sch's loaned laptop.. hiaz... sians...

Despite the fall that I have had the lost of 2 of my most precious ppl.. I still wan to stand up and I am really nt sure hw long will I take this time.... but I hope tt the some1 special to me will be able to stand by me... although I cant promise u tt I will be the best bf... I noe tt at least I will try and be one to u... Although I did break ur heart once b4..... I noe that I ill try my best to ammend that.. cause I have lost u once and the pain of losin u tt once was really painful and I would nt wan to lose u again... will u give me chance to be wif u again??? I noe u need time to think abt our relationship and being tgt... and I will give u the space and time to think abt it... but no matter wat happens, I will still love u wif all my heart and wif all my soul... I swear and I promise u on the souls of the 2 ppl tt I loved dearly and have lost...

Well I guess I go and relax and enjoy my national day holiday ba... okie maybe nt really enjoy cause I will be in agony due to the lost... but yea.. tc folks..

TROUBLED AND SADDENED UNCLE STEVEN SIGNIN OFF.....

my life sucks like FUCK....

Somehw i feel that life sucks to the max... I am like so depressed..... its like all the ppl tt I love are dyin while I this fked up asshole is still alive... 1st I lost andrew nxt I lost contact wif my most beloved jie hu is Eileen jie well because of a stupid mistake tt I did which i can say as I deserve it ba and I cant forgive myself for hurtin her... I am really srrt jie... den recently I lost my cousin bro hu went to canada to get his pilot license but ended up drownin cause of a fkin whirlpool.. well more like it was a freak accident.... AND NW fkin hell ytd I just receive another bad news... Dear is in bad shape cause of the cancer tt is spreadin in her body and may die in less den a yr or maybe slightly more...

FUCK.... y did god just wan to take all my loved ones but just nt me.... Y must I be tortured like tt??? Cant u just let me die tgt wif them... esp my dear.... Y... Fk it.. if u wan to take my dear from my side... u have to fkin get me 1st u fkin 700 in chinese asshole face man..

I dunno.. I just feel so confused... and I am really tired of gettin hurt always.... just when I tot I would have a gd life wif my dear... u must take her from me as well... I dun care whether she has to die er nt... I noe for sure tt I will always love her always and will nvr leave her side even though u have to take her away... I swear I will... ,,!,, ,,!,, tts wat I will give u....

I guess I go and relax alittle aft postin this... pon from class lolz... later still gt FYP meetin cause need to do alot of stuff... tc folks will update soon when I am free...

DEPRESSED UNCLE STEVEN SIGNIN OFF....

Finally home....

Ahhh...... finally home swt home... went out to do my FYP poster and discuss wif the team on wat to put on the poster... keep tellin myself to tahan wat they say.... looks like my self control of nt flarin up and punchin the shit out of my fked up crappy team leader is pretty gd... haha.... Well I just dunno hw the fk u manage to learn hw to bullshit so much and just lie through ur pants like as if ur takin a god damn piss in the toilet sia... hiaz... no comments liao la u this team leader...

Well my poster I gt onli like until tml to do my part and I gt alot of work to do.. I guess I cant do it today... kinda dead beat... well partly is because I did nt manage to slp well the nite b4.... and aso partly is because my migrane is actin up alittle but nt to worry I took my medication alrdy haha.... last nite I downed 1/2 a bottle of Johnny Walker Black Label... haha well kinda stressed out as feelin tt life is FUCKED UP AS USUAL... which is y today I gotta slp if nt some1 is gg to nag the fk out of me and scold me... haha dear I am srry wor... dun scold me okie??? I just hope my poster presentation tt is on this comin sat on the 18th of july I will just do well enuf....

Bro give me the strength to continue fightin.... and give me the rite mind when doin things... thx ram bro and aso u too andrew... kinda miss u badly andrew and I am srry I have nt been able to visit ur grave as I have been really busy and stressed out... I just hope both of u will look out for me while in heaven... and I hope tt u both are doin well beside the lord.. At times I am kinda envious of u andrew... u have no more worries and all.... I just have the mentality tt hw I wish I could just join u in heaven and just look down upon all those hu I love and just protect them... hw I wish I could do just tt... just end all my misery.... its kinda painful when I think of the past... on the day tt u died... I still cry by myself when I think of the times tt we spent.... I really miss them.... but I noe this I have to take care of myself nw as I need to be strong for my family members as well as for some1 whom I really love and wish I can be wif for the rest of my life... Dear this msg is for u... I will love u wif all my heart and wif all my soul.. I promise.... dun ever think of the negative side okie... just think abt gettin well... I will nvr leave u I swear... no matter hw u may look like or watever illness u have I will always stand wif u fightin and stayin by ur side through all the tough times... I love u dear...

Well folks I gotta go time for me to get my "beauty" slp haha.... ADIOS AMIGOS...

TROUBLED UNCLE STEVEN SIGNIN OFF..............................